skripsweet but shit....

my first post in 2017...

still busy with the skripsweet or skripshit...
Stress because the informant has not given the confirmation.. yet!!!!
Need long escape but the 2 months deadline keep chasing me... :(

Dan akhirnya pasrahhhhh.......

I hate you sometimes but missing you often.

I write this when I saw the sun goes down. When I see the orange twilight over the sky, and it recalling the old memories I've saved. Well.. I always remember you, no days without thinking of you although it is just a second. But seeing you even often just makes more damage. It is hurt in other way.

I know you still considering many things. So do I..
There are many things inside my head like "benang bruwet" which I need to release one by one. Wishing you as big as wishing my dreams. But once more it hurts my heart even more.

Hai.. it is me, again. my last post is on 10th April, 2016. Now, it is already November, no more than a week i am turning 23. Waow.. time flies. (Nggak nyangka sebentar lagi udah 23). Well.. recently i am busy with my thesis. Finally.. the step i always wait so far, finally comes. satu hal yang mungkin nggak bisa kecapai adalah wisuda di Bulan Januari, tapi masih sangat mungkin untuk bisa sidang di awal tahun depan. Ya just, pray it then. 

I write about personal branding for my thesis research and take Kak Fitri Aulia for my informant. Entah, nyali dari mana mau ambil Kak Fitri ini jadi narasumberku. Semoga saja dia tidak keberatan dan bisa membantuku menyelesaikan tugas akhir ini. 

Disaat ada banyak orang yang pingin nunda lulus karena nggak tau mau ngapain, i choose to be one of students who want to graduate immediately. Di pikiranku sekarang ini, banyak sekali yang ingin aku lakukan. Terlalu banyak, hingga bingung harus memilih yang mana dan dari mana. Awalnya, setelah lulus ini pingin serius belajar Inggris lebih dalam di Pare (I realize that my english is not good) dan ngajukin work and holiday visa, tapi kok sampai sekarang kok belum punya keberanian buat berangkat kesana sendirian. But, i guess i have to...

Friend of mine suggest me to try enrolling LPDP scholarship to get my master degree. But balik lagi, cuma bisa bayangin ambil master diluar tapi masih belum punya nyali living overseas alone. I know my dreams seem to high to reach, but i still believe that nothing is impossible except that this world won't come to the close. That's very impossible. I always motivate myself that i can do it, i can reach my dreams through hard work and praying. You know, i always pray the same thing over and over again. As they say, the result is determined by 1% effort and 99% pray. Semoga saja nantinya, Tuhan memberikan saya keberanian seandainya saya harus benar-benar abroad sendiri. Aamiin

Alternatif kedua untuk  ambil S2 di Indo, Sempat mempertimbangkan beberapa univesitas, tapi masih mikir lagi. 

Atau mau ambil sekolah fashion/kuliner, fields that i enthusiast in... Pingin juga sih coba punya clothing line sendiri (thinking deeply....)

Kemarin, sewaktu habis bimbingan skripsi, dosen ku menawarkan untuk menjadi asistennya semester depan, it doesn't matter if i have graduated. Dan aku menerimanya, Dulu sewaktu awal masuk kuliah, pernah berdo'a supaya bisa jadi asisten dosen, dan Fuilaa.. alhamdulillah dikasih kesempatan. Tapi ini juga belum pasti sih... setidaknya ada harapan kan? Dengan nerima tawaran ini, it means i have to re-plan everything. Hahh...  di satu sisi bersyukur (sangat) disisi lain bingung mana yang mau dilakukan.

Sudahlah,... mungkin aku harus menyesuaikan semuanya dengan kesempatan-kesempatan yang datang ke depan. Let's wait and see..semoga kesempatan yang datang itu adalah yang terbaik. Aamiin

Note : You.. do your best. I pray that you'll always given the ease to reach everything you want. But.. sometimes i tired with us. 

Tulisan pada pukul 1.15 di tanggal 10 November 2016 setelah editing tulisan skripsi karena mau bimbingan.

@nnurhafidhah

Ini sudah dua minggu semenjak saya pulang dari Pare. Itu adalah pertama kalinya saya jauh dari keluarga untuk waktu yang cukup lama. Dan membuat saya cukup merindukan "rumah".

Tiga hari pertama memang cukup berat, karena saya datang ke tempat yang benar-benar baru sseorang diri. Berbekal kenalan seorang teman lama yang membantu saya mencari kost untuk sebulan tinggal di Pare. Selebihnya.. Saya benar-benar mengurus semua perjalanan saya sendiri. Dan sekali lagi ini adalah pertama kalinya bagi saya setelah 22 tahun hidup sebagai makhluq yang bernama manusia.

At the beginning i want to stay for a month there, unfortunately i got a fever and bad diarrhea.. And i can't put it anymore. Then, i decided to back home and leave my course behind. Been there i got much experiences and ofcourse new friends. Those are something we'll get after coming into a new place and I am glad.

Now.. I've to start all over again. I planned to study for my IELTS test by my self for this six months and may He gives me another opportunity to back to Pare and take the course. 

I still save my dream to get a work and holiday visa. I am still worry if someday it can't happen but i always tell my self not to worry. If that barokah for you (to go Aussie) it will belong to you. Instead worrying about that why you don't make yourself be busy to learn and be gratefull.

Short Escape, Day 1

Jum'at 25 Desember 2015

Dini hari pukul 04.00, aku terbangun dari tidur. Rasanya baru beberapa waktu lalu aku tidur, tapi i've to woke up and packed my things to go to Semarang. Yeeehhhh... satu minggu sebelumnya janjian dengan Pinkan mau short escape, dan jadilah Semarang kita pilih karena nggak begitu jauh dari Yogyakarta. 

Setelah semua siap, jam 07.00 aku keluarkan motor dan bersiap menjemput Pinkan di dekat rumahnya. yaa.. kami memutuskan untuk naik motor dari Jogja ke Semarang dengan banyak pertimbangan selain kepraktisan dan tentunya ngirit ongkos. 

Berangkat dari tempat janjian pukul 08.30. Karena aku belum sarapan akhirnya, kami berhenti di Alfamart di Daerah Kabupaten Semarang untuk sekedar membeli pengganjal perut. Setelah perut terisi, perjalanan dilanjutkan. This was our first journey to Semarang, by motorcycle and just both of us. I said to her... we are strong Pinkan... 

Setelah tanya sana dan sini dan dengan bantuan papan penunjuk jalan, akhirnya jam 10.30 kami tiba di Semarang dengan selamat namun tanpa tujuan. Alhamdulillah... the first place we visited at that time was Simpang Lima, since we haven't got the hotel yet. So.. we decided to parked  our motorcycle and sat at park chair. 

Due to peak season, we haven't found a cheap hotel to stay.. but after made some calls.. Thank's God we finally got an enough cheap hotel. The name was Srikandi Hotel (IDR Rp180.000,- for standard room) located at Jl. Dr. Wahidin No.195, Candisari, Kota Semarang, Jawa Tengah 50253. The hotel was enough comfortable but there were many mosquitos there and the staffs was very friendly. For you who have minimum budget to stay i recommend this hotel.

After found the hotel, we went there and took a rest for a while. And at 14.00 we started our Journey, the first place we visited was Lawang Sewu. Lawang sewu. Lawang Sewu is a landmark in Semarang, but i don't want to told you about the history since you can find it in Pakdhe Google. Of course we took some photos there, here we go..

Lawang Sewu

Address : Komplek Tugu Muda, Jalan Pemuda, Jawa Tengah 13220

Ticket Price : Rp 10.000,-

Open : till 11pm

After  that, we went to Sam Po Kong. Sam Po Kong is The oldest Chinese temple in Semarang, Central Java, Indonesia. The foundations were set by Admiral Zheng He who arrived in the western part of what is now Semarang around year 1400 to 1416. 

Sam Po Kong

Address : Jalan Simongan Raya No.129, Barusari, Semarang Selatan 

Ticket Price : Rp 5.000,-

 

Hati-hati kadang tukang parkirnya ngeri macam preman gitu. Dan kalau lagi rame banget kayak musim liburan, kadang pada suka ngasal ngasih tarif parkir. Kita disini sampai adzan maghrib, terus habis dari sini kita ke kawasan Pecinan, niatnya mau cari makan tapi nggak nemu yang sreg. Oh ya kalau di Kawasan ini hati-hati karena banyak makanan yang nggak halal juga buat yang muslim, secara yang jual banyak yang china. karena nggak dapet makan di Pecinan, akhirnya balik lagi ke Simpang Lima. 

 

Kenyang makan nasi goreng, pulang hotel mandi. Niatnya mau balik lagi ke Simpang Lima, tapi udah ngantuk ya udah kita lanjut tidur di hotel.

 

Pengeluaran Hari pertama

- Transport = Rp 40.000,- (dua kali isi bensin @Rp 20.000)

- Makan + jajan = Rp 35.000 (roti, air mineral, siomay, dan nasgor simpang lima)

- Tiket masuk = Rp 15.000(Lawang Sewu dan Sam Po Kong)

- Parkir = Rp14.000,- (Simpang Lima (2x), Lawang Sewu, Sam Po Kong, Pecinan)

- Hotel = Rp 180.000,- (Bagi dua @90.000)

 

Total pengeluaran hari pertama :  Rp 167.000

 

Ngirit banget inih.... 

 

Cerita short escape day 2 nya bersambung ya....

 

Happy Holiday, 

Happy Traveling,

 

@NNurhafidhah

Dear mom..

Maybe you won't read this writing since you don't know my blog or how to use google to find this, but this is how i can  express my feeling for you. I love you so much, and i am sorry i can't tell or express it clearly to you.

Mom... I am so glad that God still gives you times with us, and i wish it will be longer and longer. And thank's for everything, thanks for raising me up with all your love, thanks for always give me everything i need. I am so sorry if i often mad at you, or make you mad, upset, sad. I am sorry for giving you bitterness, but i wish someday i can bring you to happiness and sweetness. I never want you cry, i want to make you proud of me. Alhamdulillahi Jaza Killahu Khoiro.. Semoga Allah memberkahi kita semua, memberikan umur panjang, kemudahan, segala yang barokah kepadamu. Dan do'akan anakmu agar bisa membahagiakanmu.

I love you forever...